" Remember that the best relationship is the one in which your love for eachother exceeds your need for eachother". -Dhali Lama
Oh how I wish we knew that the love exceeds before the need BEFORE we get in the relationship. How many times can someone do the same thing over and over but expect a different result. Thats right an insane person could do it zillions of times. Lets hope we all do not fall under that category. But I admit I am guilty of it. Same story, fall for a guy who just ends up being an ass, only to stay for him to break the one thing that keeps me living.
I do wonder, is there someone out there? Is there that majic that when you know that the person who you are staring at can be the one you will want to grow old with? I want that, I do, but does it exist? Or.....Do we stay to convince ourselves it exists? Broad question but limited answers. I do beleive in one thing and that is a quote by Aristotle, " A true friend is one soul in two bodies". And if I belive that then to some extent is has to be true. I dont want to look for it but in some ways I always seem to. Is it so hard to have someone who will be your best friend but still find your the most gorgeous woman? Who will hold you so tight that it can never be too tight, someone to look at you when you cry to them and almost evaporate your tears in so many words. I almost find it impossible. I see people in love but you never know if they really are. Especially now adays when people get married for like 3 seconds and then divorce. I want that man who will walk by my side with his arm around me and let everyone and anyone know I am his and only his. He will not get jealous, not look at me like I dont matter, not get angry with me over the stupidest things.
Is it possible? Damn how I want it to be.
I sit in my apartment sometimes just thinking, Am I happy. Will I ever be truely happy? Will I ever give someone the opportunity to be that somebody for me? I think I am starting to get good at saying I can't. After all that I have seen, and just how guys are now, its sad. Guys now want girls who look like Barbie, they want girls who say yes when they ask to go to their car, and they want girls that don't challange them as a man, but we know they are really just boys. What happend to real men? The men that never let a woman step out of her bounderies but was such a gentleman that she would know not to without him saying anything. The man that opens the door and puts his hand on that very part of lower back. The man that would look your mother in the eye and say that he loves you so much and that it would take the end of the world to try and take him away from you. Then once again, is it possible?
I have had guys say they love me but when I look in their eyes I don't see love, I see anticipation, I see lust, and then I see heartbreak. But yet we follow those same paths, and those same paths lead us to this giant black whole of endlessness.
If only, if there was that man for me, I would love him only and forever. He would be my King, and mine only. He would surf with me, he would sit in the grass and laugh with me, He would hold me until I fell asleep, I would love him, faithfully and so passionately for as long as I lived. But I have to say it again, Is it possible?
Oh and by the way, Men, if you ever come to read this....just know women aren't all emotional pieces of work that you can never understand. Because we are so much more than we probly will let you know. When were mad, we really do just want to make up and be in your arms, when you get out of the shower, she really does mean it when she says you look beautiful, and even when your going to the bathroom and we laugh, its because we think its cute that your still trying to watch the game from that point of view =)
Love isn't heads or tails, or picking flower petals and flowers until you get to the last one where you say HE LOVES ME. It's work, It's tears, It's heartache, and If it is that right person, It will all be worth it.
And a piece of advice, Love yourself before you love anyone else, because in a moment when there is nobody to turn to and look for guidance is when you find out all you need is you to endure and push through only becuase " If you are lonely when your alone, you are in bad company."-Jean Paul Sartre.
Pray, Learn, and Smile as much as you can. We only have so much time to take in all that our world has to offer.
Perfectly Imperfect<3
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